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  The Ground Rules: Rewritten

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  Roya Carmen

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  The Ground Rules: Rewritten, Copyright © 2015 by Roya Carmen

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  First Omnific eBook edition, October 2015

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  The characters and events in this book are fictitious. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, is coincidental and not intended by the author.

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  Carmen, Roya.

  The Ground Rules: Rewritten / Roya Carmen – 1st ed

  ISBN: 978-1-623422-29-5

  1. Marriage—Fiction. 2. Erotica—Fiction. 3. Chicago—Fiction. 4. Swinging—Fiction. I. Title

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  Cover Design by Micha Stone and Amy Brokaw

  Interior Book Design by Coreen Montagna

  Dedication

  To all the wonderful new friends I have made

  through this writing adventure.

  Preface

  Tempting fate.

  IT COULD HAVE BEEN WORSE. Far worse. We were putting everything on the line—risking our marriages. We weren’t thinking straight. But one of us finally had the sense to. I was shattered when they ended the arrangement. But it was for the best—for all of us.

  I knew this. Yet, I was still broken. I thought I’d shatter into a million pieces but I survived. Not only did I survive, I came out stronger.

  Unfortunately, Weston wasn’t as strong as I was. Despite knowing the consequences, he reached out to me, and threatened to weaken my resolve. He was still as beautiful and mystifying as ever. And he wanted me so desperately.

  Gabe didn’t want him anywhere near me, and neither did I. But the pull between all of us was still so strong.

  I thought I finally understood how this worked. This time, I was going to be in the driver’s seat. This time, I was making the rules.

  Or so, I thought.

  We didn’t learn from our mistakes. We just made them all over again.

  Chapter One

  He knew I would know.

  I SHRUG AND LAUGH OUT LOUD. Gabe’s mouth against my neck tickles.

  “Keep the hat. You look smokin’ with the hat.”

  I’m not quite sure how the Santa hat ended up on my head. I think I plopped it on when I was emptying the Christmas boxes, digging the ornaments out, and praying to God they weren’t broken. This yearly ritual is something the girls and Gabe and I love so much. Of course, it’s never quite complete without festive music and hot chocolate.

  Somehow Gabe and I have ended up in bed, with the bedroom door locked. When we opened the Christmas boxes, the girls were very excited to see all the holiday movies. And always the resourceful guy, Gabe suggested they watch one of them, “With popcorn and everything.” I smiled at him and reminded him that we had a tree and a house to decorate. But he told me he could think of much more fun things we could be doing—and Gabe’s idea of fun usually involves a bed…or a chair, or countertop…

  He takes his sweet time as he unbuttons my blouse, from the bottom up.

  “We have an hour and forty-two minutes,” he whispers in my ear.

  Every button he undoes brings me closer to desire. I love watching his large hands working their way up slowly to my breasts. He shoots me a wicked smile as I grab a handful of his shirt.

  I want him.

  “Is the door locked?” God, he looks more delicious than the hot cocoa we were just about to have before he dragged me to the bedroom. Okay, perhaps the use of the word “dragged” is not quite appropriate here, because I was sure willing and more than a little enthusiastic.

  I practically rip off his shirt. I love his tribal tattoo—it covers about half his smooth, sculpted chest and flows over his shoulder and arm, transforming him into a living work of art. His nipple pokes through a bare spot of the tribal design, emerging like the eye of an eagle. I drop to my knees and kiss him at the tip of a curvy edge of his tattoo, just above his navel, and trail my tongue down. He moans out loud and pulls me back up to him.

  He kisses me just right, with a heady mix of slow sensuality and eagerness, one rough hand on my face, and the other on my rear. He tugs my yoga pants down, tearing his mouth away from mine. “You know what would look real hot with that Santa hat?”

  I pull off his lounging pants in one swift move. “What?” I’m kind of in a hurry. Part of me is worried one of the girls will interrupt us—they always seem to.

  He trails his finger along the edge of my plain cotton bra. “That little lacy red number you have. I’ve seen it in your drawer but I’ve never seen it on you.”

  Oh that…

  I want to tell him I’m trying to forget that little set. I should have really thrown it out, but it’s so beautiful and expensive I just can’t bring myself to get rid of it. Although every time I look at it, I’m reminded of Weston—our third date—the red dress. That little red silky set came off so slowly, but it was so worth the wait. Weston practically made me beg that night, and with every ticking second, he made me crave him more and more.

  I shake my head a little and start making excuses. “I don’t really like that underwear. It’s a bit small.”

  Gabe’s hand still lingers on my rear and he flashes me a wicked smile. “There’s no such thing as ‘too small’ when it comes to underwear, babe.”

  I shoot him a half-smile. The truth is I just don’t want to wear it with Gabe because I’m afraid all I’ll think about is Weston.

  His eyes are dark as he pulls off my cotton undies. “I’m getting you naked, and you’re putting that little red number on.” His tone is all business. It’s not a suggestion, it’s practically an order. I know there’s no use in arguing with him over something so trivial. I know when to pick my fights, and this isn’t the time.

  He pulls the strap of my sports bra down and takes my breast in his mouth. I bury my hands in his beautiful curls.

  I do want this.

  And if he wants to see me in the red underwear, it really isn’t such a big deal.

  Naked as the day I was born, I walk over to my lingerie drawer in our walk-in closet and reluctantly pull out the red set. I trail my finger along the delicate edges, images flashing through my mind; my own little erotic film.

  As I slip it on, I’m instantly aroused. I’m like Pavlov’s dog—the red set is like the bell—instant association to sex…toe-curling sex. After some tugging and slapping to get everything where it should be, I finally emerge with the infamous red bra and panties on.

  Gabe lies back on the bed with nothing on but tight silky black boxers. “Good God, that’s hot.”

  I smile. He’s looking pretty damn good too—sculpted body, black ink on smooth olive skin and that look on his face…that look which tells me he’s about to have his fun with me.

  And suddenly, I feel like playing too.

  He leans back on his elbows. “Come here, Santa’s Little Helper.”

  I laugh as I walk slowly to him. Oddly enough, I don’t feel ridiculous at all in the Santa
hat. He grabs me by the waist and pulls me down to him. His kiss is intense. Our tongues explore, sloppily tease. I feel him hard against me, and it arouses me like nothing else. He sucks at my bottom lip and digs his fingers into the band of my panties. I pull away. I want to play.

  I take the Santa hat off my head and put it on his. “I think you should wear the hat.” It suits him. His unruly curls escape at the edges. He looks adorable, adorably sexy, to be more specific.

  “Hottest Santa ever,” I add with a smirk.

  He smiles making his eyes crease at the edges as his face lights up.

  My husband is beautiful, I muse as I study his features.

  Gabe’s finger traces the lacy edge of my bra cup. “Tell me, Ella, have you been a good girl this year, or a naughty girl?”

  I laugh a little, thinking about it for a second. If you consider exploring the pleasures of the flesh in various compromising positions with a man who is not your husband? Then I suppose I have been kind of naughty this year. But on the flip side, I did have permission.

  “Well, of course I’ve been good, Santa,” I say sweetly.

  He frowns a little, his thick brows pulling together. “That’s too bad,” he says as he grabs my ass hard, “because this Santa likes his girls naughty.”

  I laugh. And this time, I’m literally laughing out loud. He’s so hilarious. “You’re going to have to be a little more original than that to get me into bed. This ‘naughty or nice’ bit is a little tacky, don’t you think?”

  Tugging off my panties, not so gently, he says, “You’re very demanding. What do you want from me? I’ve only got so many games in my playbook, sweetie.”

  He places soft kisses on my belly. His touch feels so amazing. It seems like ages since we’ve had sex. With work, the kids, life, there’s just not enough time. His lips barely touch my skin but I feel his butterfly kisses all the way through me, deep within.

  “Okay, I’m game,” I finally concede. “I’ve been very naughty this year, Santa. Very naughty. I’ve done things I should be completely ashamed of,” I tell him, putting on my best sweet and sexy voice. And as I say the words, I’m reminded of Weston. As much as I’ve tried to forget him, I just can’t.

  But with every soft kiss to every sweet spot on my naked body, Gabe almost makes me forget.

  Almost.

  “Careful! You’re going to break your neck,” I call out. I don’t mean to be a helicopter mom, but Chloe brings it out in me. She’s stretched up on top of a chair; one leg hanging in the air as she reaches for the top of the tree and tries to hang a sparkly bird at the exact spot where she wants it.

  I set my cup of cocoa down on the coffee table. “Here, let me help you.”

  It’s a beautiful day, a perfect day to trim the tree. There’s a light snow fall, which is unusual for early December. We couldn’t have planned it better. Gabe’s arms are full of Claire. He’s holding her up high so she can hang her little “Baby’s First Christmas” porcelain teddy bear ornament up high, front and center. It’s been broken twice so far, but it seems to mean so much to her, Gabe has glued it together again and again.

  Gabe shoots me a wink. I love it when he does that. When we were teenagers, he used to do it all the time, but lately, the winks are few and far between. This particular one is the “is it just me, or did we just have amazing sex?” wink. I answer with a big smile.

  Oh yes, we did.

  The tree looks good; cozy and all twinkles, covered in a collection of our oldest and most precious ornaments, each one more meaningful than the last. This isn’t a pretentious tree, it’s a friendly tree, a down-to-earth tree. Looking at it feels like a warm hug.

  As I hang one of the last ornaments, a porcelain angel Gabe gave me a long time ago when we were so young, I can’t help but think about all the years we’ve shared, all the memories we’ve made.

  I never belonged with Weston. I belong with Gabe.

  I try not to think about Weston. When I get emotional, I do. Getting over him has been hard, but I’m almost there. I’ve been picking up the pieces, one at a time, and damn, were they heavy. It’s taken all the strength I have. But I’ve done it every day, every hour, and every minute. I’m laughing again. I’m living again. I’m not thinking about him every second of the day.

  “You made it just the way I like it! With mini rainbow marshmallows,” Claire squeals as she grabs the cup of warm cocoa from her dad’s hand.

  “I aim to please,” he says sweetly.

  And that he does, I can’t help but think. I have such a dirty mind.

  Chloe helps me set up the manger under the tree. She handles the ceramic baby Jesus carefully and adjusts the scene just so. When she’s done, she backs up a foot or two to assess her work. Seemingly satisfied, she smiles. And then, her eyes grow wide with sudden realization. She jumps to her feet. “Oh, I almost forgot. We need to put presents under the tree.”

  “But there’s no presents yet, Chloe,” Gabe tells her.

  But there are, I want to say. They’re just not wrapped yet. And the ones from Santa are still carefully hidden in the garage. I’ve never been a procrastinator when it comes to Christmas.

  Chloe bounces back downstairs with a big smile and a small box—the “mystery” present. I had all but forgotten about the mystery gift; a plain silver box left in my mailbox a few days ago with a Post-it note attached. The yellow bit of paper reads: For Miss Mirella.

  I didn’t think too much of it when I first spotted it, buried in bills, junk mail and my Redbook magazine. But I did briefly wonder who would leave a gift for me in my mail box? The note attached makes me think it’s from one of my students. They’re the only ones who call me “Miss Mirella.” But why not wait until the last day before break, when I open all the gifts in front of everyone?

  Chloe sets the small silver box under the tree.

  Gabe eyes it with interest. He kneels beside the tree and grabs the box. “What’s this?”

  “It’s for me. It was left in the mailbox with a note.”

  He scratches his week-old scruff. “From who?”

  “I don’t know,” I tell him honestly. “It was addressed to Miss Mirella, I’m waiting for Christmas morning to open it.”

  “That’s too weird. You gotta open it.”

  I sit comfortably on the sofa, cup of cocoa in hand, legs tucked in happily under my bum. “I can wait.”

  He shakes the box. “Aren’t you curious? It’s something solid. Something small and heavy.”

  I smile at him. He’s like a little kid.

  “Pleeeease open it,” Claire pleads. “I want to see.”

  “Yeah, open it, Mommy,” Chloe echoes.

  Gabe smiles his sexy lopsided grin. “Yeah, open it, Mommy.”

  Great, now the entire family is ganging up on me.

  I was set on waiting, but now everyone’s turning me into a curious kitty. I’m already itching to know what’s inside. I want my curiosity scratched.

  I really don’t have a choice now.

  I must admit, I’m secretly delighted to have an excuse to open it.

  I hold the shiny box and study it for a second or two. All eyes are on me, eager. It seems I’m not moving fast enough because Claire starts to sigh, not so subtly.

  When I finally tear the wrapping off, I see a beautiful light blue velvet box. My heart stops cold. I know this isn’t from one of my students.

  I know it’s from Weston.

  I know it’s from him before I even open the pretty little velvet box.

  I’m filled with mixed emotions as I lift the lid. My breath hitches when I see a beautiful jeweled butterfly brooch nestled in the box, covered in what appears to be diamonds, sapphires and rubies.

  My eager little butterfly.

  Tears stream down my cheeks as my body fully responds. My heart swells with a mix of emotions: sadness, longing, excitement, lust, bust most of all…anger.

  How dare him. The bastard.

  He did the right thing when he ende
d this. He did what I wasn’t strong enough to do. Why is he doing this now?

  Chloe’s eyes are wide, her expression eager. “Wow, that’s beautiful.” I can tell she wants to touch it but she knows better.

  Claire’s tiny brows are furrowed. “Who gave you that?” There’s a hint of irritation in her voice. Even in her tiny seven-year-old mind, she seems to know something is up.

  I look over at Gabe who doesn’t utter a word, but seems livid. He knows too. There’s only one person who could have given me such a gift.

  With shaking fingers, I hold the box and stare at the butterfly.

  He didn’t leave a note. He didn’t even sign his name. He knew he didn’t have to. He knew I would know.

  What an arrogant jerk.

  I’m so angry. He’s broken my heart. I know it was for my own good. But still…

  Sudden concern washes over Claire’s delicate features. “What’s wrong, Mommy? Don’t you like it? Who’s it from?” She still wants to know.

  “Mommy can’t keep it. It’s from someone we know,” Gabe tells her.

  “Why can’t she keep it?” Chloe chimes in, curious. “Is that why you’re crying, Mommy?”

  I stand and walk over to the kitchen, trying to get away from everyone. I shouldn’t have opened this in front of the girls, in front of Gabe. But how was I to know it was from him? I didn’t expect this. He’s the one who broke things off. He’s the one who was smart enough, sensible enough to end this. I haven’t heard from him in months. And now this. I don’t understand what he’s trying to do to me.

  I can’t help but think he’s playing with me. Playing with my heart.

  So cruel.

  But he knows better. This isn’t like him.

  Gabe joins me in the kitchen and practically wears down the floor pacing. He’s certainly not impressed. “That asshole,” he whispers, his mouth a hard line. “What the hell is he doing? Who does he think he is?”

  I wipe the tears with the sleeve of my fuzzy sweater. “I don’t know,” is all I can manage to say. I don’t really want to admit the fact that I never really understood Weston. I was in love with him, but I could never quite figure him out. He’s so closed off. I don’t think he ever lets anyone in. When I was with him, I felt like I pried that door open a little, just a sliver, but there was always something heavy on the other side, something mysterious preventing me from kicking it wide open. To this day, Weston remains an enigma.